Jia Hui <3 Cherrie .

8.53 A.M , 28 November 2009 - I've been sleeping so much everyday , I took a nap and suddenly woke up to have a lil breakfast with my mum and we were talking about my girlfriend . And i just cant sleep after that . I miss you Cherrie .

To : My Dear Cherrie

I broke our chance and our attempt to make things normal . I really want you to trust me . I'm feeling a little emotional and always throw my temper . I swear now i will never throw my temper again . No matter how sad i feel i will LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE .

Don't ever give up on me ..

I've took enough time and i know it now . I wont waste our time anymore . I want to have you back . I think alot lately . I realized time actually flies so fast . It's almost December already . I went through so much together with you . You meant the world to me . You're a different girl i know . You're strong and independent . But me loving you and caring you doesnt mean that you're not strong bi . I appreciate that you love me with all your heart .

You never did write those sweet things for anyone before . You changed that because of me . But i know you didnt force yourself . We were so deeply in love . All your promises & words never left my heart & soul before . I believe in all of them till now . I know you're losing patience and you're also having a hard time handling other problems in life . I'm sorry . But i know you're really happy with me .

Remember ? .. All the things you wrote to me ..

All the things you told me ..

Everytime you hug me to sleep ,

I see your piggy face sleeping ,

I love that face of yours when you sleep without worry & any problems ,

I know you had a really hard relationship & experience before & all these while ,

But my heart knows you're actually really sweet & loving ..

Watching your expression when you sleep and your eyes tells me everything ..

A scar is still inside you ..


I knew i loved you before i met you <3

Remember you said you will try to be my anything ? ..

"I love it when my fingers are entangled in yours,
My head was on your chest,
listening your heart beat.
It made me feel so safe,
like nothing bad could happen to me.
Love is being in someone...
Love is finding someone you can't live without...
Thank for everything we did together...
I don't care what they say in our relationship, I'm in love with you now...
Age is only the number, and Love doesn't care how old you are...

YOU KNOW THAT I WOULD TRY TO BE YOUR ANYTHING

and anything I wrote is true...

iloveyou TanJiaHui

xoxo
-END-"

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I believe that you are still that Cherrie ♥ Please don't give up on me ..

Please dont lose hope ..

Believe in what you said my dear ♥


我怕來不及 我要抱著你 .. 直到感覺你的皺紋 有了歲月的痕跡 .. 直到肯定你是真的 直到失去力氣 .. 為了你 我願意 ..

動也不能動 也要看著你 .. 直到感覺你的髮線 有了白雪的痕跡 .. 直到視線變得模糊 直到不能呼吸 .. 讓我們 形影不離 ..

我們好不容易 我們身不由己 .. 我怕時間太快 不夠將你看仔細 .. 我怕時間太慢 日夜擔心失去你 .. 恨不得一夜之間白頭 永不分離..

如果 全世界我也可以放棄 .. 至少還有你 值得我去珍惜 .. 而你在這裡 就是生命的奇蹟 .. 也許 全世界我也可以忘記 .. 就是不願意 失去你的消息 ..

My chinese is not so good . But somethings i cant say it out . These lyrics i mean it with all my heart . I really mean it dear ..

Until i lose my strength , Until i can't move , Until i can't look , I want to hold you ..

I'm SORRY to all your friends i acted like that infront of them .

I'm SORRY to all your friends for scolding them .

I'm stupid & reckless . I acted without thinking always . I must learn now to think before i act . I'm sincerely sorry to everyone for causing such a pain .

You gave me everything and a little bit more ,

It was cold at night and you sleep by my side ,

You were there to walk my soul ,

You came to melt my broken heart ,

You gave my life a brand new start ,

You became the meaning of my life ..

Holding your hand , Here where we stand we'll never be alone ..


Our white hot night at zouk <3


The smile on your face lets me know that you need me ,

There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me ,

Hold my hand and never let go is all i'm asking for ,

I've become desperate for your love & attention ,



I MISS ALL THE TIMES WE HAD

I MISS HOLDING YOUR HANDS WALKING THE STREETS .

I MISS IT WHEN YOU LAY ON ME EVERYTIME WE CATCH A MOVIE .

I MISS HUGGING YOU CLOSE TIGHT TO ME EVERYNIGHT BEFORE I SLEEP .

I MISS KISSING YOU TILL THE SUN RISES .

I MISS HEARING YOU TELL ME I LOVE YOU OVER & OVER AGAIN .

I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE BOUGHT OUR RING TOGETHER T.T

I never wore a couple ring together ever with a girl because i never trusted the love nor i dare to prove that the LOVE IS FOREVER :'( ..

I trust our love & you so i chose to wear our current ring together ..

Remember we walked in Tiffany & Co at Pavilion and chose our ring ? ..

You were wearing your yellow dress and i wore a black polo tee ..

Hand in hand we walked in Tiffany&Co and finally chose our ring ..

I said to you "Don't ever ever take off that ring okay ? I'll love you always"

You asked me " Why you love me ? Are you sure ?"

I replied " Yes dear , SO SO MUCH !! Always & Forever .."

And you finally said " I'll cherish & i won't take the ring off ever "

Cherrie , 我愛你 ...

Words don't come easily ,

I've never felt crazy like this before ,

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I often close my eyes and I can see you smile ..

You reach out for my hand and I'm woken from my dream..

And every night I lie awake thinking maybe you love me like I've always loved you ..

But how can you love me like I loved you when you can't even look me straight in my eyes ..

Could you look me in the eyes and tell me you love me :'( ? ..

I've never felt this way to be so in love ,

To have someone there yet feel so alone .

Aren't you supposed to be the one to wipe my tears dear ? ..

The one to say that you would never ever leave me ..

And it just hurts so much to know that I can't do a thing ..

And deep down in my heart somehow I just know

That no matter what i'll always love you my CHERRIE DEAR ♥

I promise to always love you .

I vow to love you till death do us apart .

I love you , dear

I love you more than my whole world .

I love you more than my life .

Loving you is the best feeling i've ever felt ♥

Just so you know , i'll never be fine without you .

I lay & stare at my window thinking what should i do .

Sometimes when i tear while thinking of you i don't even realize till i wake up from that dream .

I know how you feel inside I've been there before

Something's changing inside you and don't you know ..

And please remember i never lied ..

I only lie if i told you i'm fine and happy without you ..

Please remember how i feel inside now sweetheart ..

从来没想过不能再和你牵手 ..

我知道你还是爱着我 ..

我知道你还放不下我..

才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头 ..

其实这份爱没停过 ..

DEAR , YOU KNOW IT TOO THAT THIS LOVE HAS NEVER ONCE STOPPED ..


It was an hour ago when i wrote this . You'll forever be with me . I miss you :'(

You'll always be a part of me ..

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Bi , i'm breathless and so tired now .

Maybe i've never really made you happy but you always do make me happy .

Honestly , i'm dead afraid to lose you because you really play a big part of my life .

This i swear & promise you , i've never regret choosing you and being with you : )

I missed the way you wake me up to go eat lunch everytime we overslept at my house . Heh

I missed the time we accidentally knocked our heads when we wanted to kiss .

I missed the times you drive all the way from Kajang to be with me . Thanks bi ♥

will i ever have the chance for all that again ? ..

Forgive me , i know i promised i won't cry again .. I just cant help it .. I'm really tired .. I can't stop tearing .. I really can't .. T.T

i wanna be with you till the end of time..
i will never ever let you go ..
i wanna gaze the stars with you ..
i'm feeling nervous..
trying to be perfect ,
because i know you're worth it ..
no words can describe how much i love you ..
do you know how much i love you piggy ?

♥

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why do i love you ? ♥

thats what you always ask me .

its because

- you're that big eye pretty lil girl
- you're that strong girl who loves me
- you're always so sweet
- you care for me so much
- you changed so much for me
- your kisses are always so wet and warm
- your hugs can make any of my pain go away
- the way you call me dear & bi ♥

everything of you is why i love you .

you took my heart away ♥

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Dear ,

I hope this has no end , i wanna walk with you till the end of time . nothing is forever , but nothing is impossible right ? (: i won't let go of your hands . Through it all i've made my mistakes . I stumbled and fall but i mean these words .

Im so tired but I can't sleep . It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word . Remember the good times we had ? Don't let our love end .

I'm telling you now ..

I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU .

I WILL NEVER EVER GIVE UP UNLESS I DIE .

I LOVE YOU MY PIGGY

I LOVE YOU MY DEAR

I LOVE YOU MY BABY

I LOVE YOU MY HONEY

I LOVE YOU MY SWEETHEART

I LOVE YOU MY DARLING

I LOVE YOU BI

I LOVE YOU CHERRIE LIONG

♥

I have one small request ..
Can you show me how our love feels like again ? ..
Can we be like how we always were ? ..
Can you love me ?..

Your sweet smile kills everything bitter & pain .

11.35 a.m , 28 November 2009 .

P/s : Dear , i wrote this for you because i miss you so much . It took me four hours . I've so much more to do for you . I want to show you that i love you and i would do anything for you . You'll probably going to wake up soon and i'm going to sleep . I've nothing to do anyway . I love you once again dear .

Can't you see that you belong with me

Cherrie Liong Lai Mun . 26.09.09 - Forever <3

I've never been updating my blog since months .

I never thought i would update again .

I never thought if i would update it has to be this .

It's 6.17 A.M , 26.11.09 right now . We will be going out for lunch later :' ( . I hardly slept , everything suddenly keeps flashing back . Please don't scold me cause i didnt sleep again . If you remember , it's exactly two months since the time when i first proposed to you for couple in my room .

Remember how i held your hands tight and kissed you then i said " Piggy Dear , Can you give me a chance ? Can you be my girlfriend ? " . You nod and then hugged me so tight . It was simple & sweet . I told myself i was so lucky . I had everything then . My life had everything then . I had all the money i ever needed . I had the best times with my family & friends then . Well , Yes maybe i "party-ed" a little not too normal then .

Heh , i loved you to bits . I told myself nothing would stop me from loving you . Till now , nothing changed . No one can take you away from me . They can try . I won't let anything or anyone take you away from me .

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How i first met you was the question that is so funny bi !! I came to pick a friend from Maison after a Thursday Night . There you sat outside face so red after drinking and wearing a purple dress . You caught my eyes . I told myself .

Wow , this girl is so adorable & amazing . You're just that one out of a million that caught my heart . After that , i worked so hard to find out things about you . Every Thursday i make sure i will be at Maison . Friday maybe Poppy ? . Then i got close with Stephy . Through her i got to said my first " Hi , nice to meet you Cherrie ." From then , i told myself i must get yo

u . Yes , i flirted with her . But my choice all the time was you . I adored you to bits .

I made my way to Aloha on that weird Friday Night and was so glad to see you . There we took our first picture together (: !

It was that friday before Merdeka Eve (: I remember i texted you how was your Merdeka Eve ? Heh . I miss those lil guessing games . i was already falling deeper for you . Weird eh ? Who would've thought we would actually be together so serious .

Our very first date together . Well , i was late for our first date . I was so excited busy preparing at home and waiting for my driver . I finally found your place . We ate Michelangelo's at Pavilion (: Remember ? There you told me more about yourself . You told me you were different from a normal girl . I didn't care . I told myself i will love you for who you are . We went to zouk after . Hehe , i looked better then eh ? Nowadays , i don't really care about my outlook . Because who else needs to see me other than you ? (:

The very first picture you took at my house bi . You look so adorable :' ( I miss that little Cherrie !

Look into my eyes and you'll know how much you mean to me <3

I super zhao tut and i had stomach problems the night we went to pavilion <3>

I can't wait to tell everyone that you're the one for me ! I didn't want to let go off your hands .

I just can't continue writing , i'm tearing till i cant write ...

I'll continue writing , i promise ..

I loved you more than myself , I lose myself in all those fights ..

You're the greatest story i ever told ..

I've so much more yet to tell ..

I'm just so pain and tearing my heart out ..

I know what you want is not me to tell you all these ..

You want me to change to the Tan Jia Hui you love ..

I changed because I Love You . I didn't realize anything else . I didn't care about money , I didn't care about friends & family . All i think is you , you & you . I thought you would like it . But i was wrong . I'm sorry i broke my promises . I just tried too hard and it was so painful thats why i went crazy . I'm sorry .

All the nights you hugged me and kissed me through the night .

All the times we made love and you told me how much you love me .

Just days ago at Genting you hugged and kissed me through the night . I felt we really could last forever then . But i know something isn't right . I was scared :' ( Dont blame me okay ? i was really scared to lose you ....

How could i ever forget you ? ..

I will change .

I will wait .

I want you to wait for me .

I would never find another .

I will tattoo you on me .

Give us a chance again .

Wait for me to come back . Don't try to forget me

Don't lie to yourself and ignore me ever again .

Don't say you hate me ever again .

I know you love me still ..

So please , don't give up on us .

I will do everything .

Everything i do it , I do it for you .

I Love You , Cherrie Liong Lai Mun .

Always & Forever inside my heart .

I'll never love another .

You're my One & Only .

You're that Special .

I just can't live without you .

Lunch with you later at 12 . I better get some rest

To be continued ..

Penang Penang.

Hehe , ever tried a 13 hour trip to penang ! Try It !

Let the pictures do the explanation . Been very busy lately . Body clock is so fucked up . Life is so fucked up as well . Argh , It's 10 a.m and i'm not asleep . Just wanna revive this blog with some pictures . Ooh <3




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